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Leap On, Soul Sister

Leap On, Soul Sister

photo credit: Camdiluv ♥ via photopin cc

photo credit: Camdiluv ♥ via photopin cc

Very few people read my post last week about my boots. If blog posts were measured in terms of sound, this one would’ve registered off-the-charts crickets. And that’s ok. I wrote it because I had to. I felt an overwhelming sense that I had blown it when God asked me to do something. It was one of those experiences when you hope your failure encourages someone else so they don’t feel so alone. Or like a mess. Or at least that they don’t feel so alone in their mess.

I kind of bummed my way through last week. Nothing was wrong but I just felt heavy. I looked around, wondering if I was going to say “no” to God with other things–things that were more important than silly polka dot boots. Wondering what He was going to ask of me and how I might just panic again.

But nothing happened. As we went into another store that week, I told my mom (joking on the outside but serious as a heart attack on the inside) that I wondered what God was going to ask me to give away this time. I felt relief when she told me to come find her if I felt compelled to give away any other articles of clothing and she’d be there to back me up. So, off I went, and I was not beckoned to share anything. For that, I was grateful.

I also heard from my wonderful mother-in-law and a dear friend in Buffalo and a friend from church. A few good people shared their similar experiences–both failures in obedience and some successes. I felt lighter. We really are never alone on this journey, are we?

And on Sunday morning, I woke up to these words from one of my soul sisters:

I wanted to say that I read your post about the boots the other day. We sang a song at small group fellowship that made me think of you and your boots: (from Oh How He Loves Us“We are His portion and He is our prize, Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes, If His grace was an ocean, we’re all sinking. And Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss, And my heart turns violently inside my chest, I don’t have time to maintain these regrets, When I think about the way He Loves us.” It just struck me how sometimes the lesson of opportunity lost is more powerful than the actual action. Anyway–I wanted to speak freedom and grace inside His love and care into you.

Oh, how much those words meant to me. A little more of the heaviness lifted.

I then looked back at the week, meditating on how much “nothing” had happened since the boot incident. I realized “nothing” was not an accurate description at all. My team met with our foster care partners for our church ministry and put dates on the calendar to begin the journey. My husband and I marked in our own personal calendars when we were going to train to become foster parents ourselves. We continued talks on expanding our family and how we both felt God calling us to parent more than just our three. Nothing? No, no. Everything.

In terms of taking leaps of faith, I did blow it with the boots. I’m probably going to do it a hundred times more. But I’m not going to blow it with caring for the fatherless. In fact, I’m already mid-leap and I’m not alone.

Amazingly, it doesn’t feel heavy or sad or scary. It feels glorious, like flying.

Comments

  1. June Kenny says:

    I always love reading your blogs – they make me think. You have illustrated an extremely important point about God’s grace & forgiveness. One I seem to need to re-learn over and over. A “gift” isn’t a gift until someone actually picks it up and accepts it. Until then, it sits there rejected, unseen or “meant for someone else?”

  2. So glad you are blogging….you will have a record of all the times “nothing” was really something and see the path that God has cleared for you ahd how that path rests in his loving hands. I see both of you holding hands and running down that path and praise the Lord!

    • Margo Gregozeski says:

      It’s funny that you wrote this post this week. Because when I saw you recently I felt compelled to tell you that I really enjoyed the “boots blog.” But then when we actually spoke I didn’t mention it. I thought, “oh she doesn’t need to hear that. I’m sure she has close friends who comment on her writings. What does it matter if I say something.” A missed opportunity for me…..you actually did need to hear how good the story was and how it touched another person. I am self critical and often feel like I am not following God’s whispers the way that I should and I get down on myself for it. You reminded me of God’s forgiveness and grace for me even in my shortcomings. So thank you for that and for continuing to share.

    • Thank you, Margaret. Looking back will be an amazing gift, seeing how He had been preparing us this whole time.

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